Comfy But Live
What I’m feeling is unexplainable.
I broke down all barriers and found myself. All the things I need to fix and change in order to be a better person. I kinda learned how to live again in myself not needing all these chemicals. I really must now learn to be myself and embrace the sharp witted nerd I really am on the inside. Embrace it because the portrayal of person I was was not the person I am.
I’m better than that person who couldn’t see that she’s not comfortable in her own skin. I’m not that person who has no self esteem and is afraid to let her real self shine through. This girl is new. She’s got a different outlook. She is refined. She is still FATIMA but a more thoughtful and tolerable version.
The Fatima on drugs was a bad Fatima. Not the Fatima that is easy to embrace. Fatima on drugs is entertaining but Fatima on drugs is not who I am. Fatima on drugs embarrasses me sometimes. Most things about her I don’t even like and I AM HER.
I fell off the path a little bit but I’m ready to get back on. I just needed this experience to show Fatima… STOP TAKING THINGS FOR GRANTED. Appreciate the people around you. Be aware. Trust your gut because girl, you’re right 85% of the time anyway. (I have a third eye)
Turned off. Tuned in. Dropping the fuck out. I am me and I’m finally excepting that.
